hand in hand

                     Oct 5,2008

Couples walking hand in hand

jealousy running through me

Reminding me of the past

Making my heart ache

No anger directed at them 

for having what I don’t

 maybe just a little?

 I am missing it

wanting it back

I want to walk hand in hand

Having your hand in mine 

Walking

Talking

Couples walking hand in hand

Leaving me wondering 

what is the reality that I really will have that again?

Am I fooling myself?

Pretending?

Wishful thinking and dreaming

Most days I think I am a fool

It will never happen again

Only behind a fence

Never in real life?

Or can it be?

I don’t know

Do you?

Are we both fooling ourselves?

Or can it ever be?

I will love you forever 

      And ever